Merry Xmas

its been a few weeks since i last updated my blog.

i still yet to receive the pictures from frangi meet n greet session pictures therefore, no new piccies... sigh...

xmas this year is not 'wow wow' thing... just normal dinner with hun and out with frens for dinner (again) at the curve. den head back to mom's place for a few booze den called it a day at 5am. tho it ended early, but it's nothing special for a xmas celebration...

no, i dont wish to elaborate more.

Happy Birthday Misheru

i could say that this year's bday was the most memorable one. despite wat happened few days before my bday, i can see that baby was trying very hard to make me happy on a special day like that.

6th december 07
i left home about 11am and reached masjid jamek at about 11.40am as we already set the time to meet at 12pm. when i reached i called baby but no answer. as i know she usually dont like ppl to rush her or interrupt her when getting ready for anything, so i stopped calling her. and so... i waited...

at about nearly 12.30pm, baby called me... and she said she just woke up. im speechless... am very angry, but very speechless.

and guess wat, later on she reached at 2.30pm... ish... pig!! *oink oink*

anyways... we headed to gombak terminal putra and waited for a bus to leave at 4pm to skyway. and we ended up in genting at about 4.30pm

once we stepped in we rushed to look for a room. first world, as usual, penuh liao. she asked me to wait for her at first world lobby and she go look for a room. i was nicely playing PSP while waiting for her. hehe...

we checked in at 5pm in theme park hotel. and slept a while. yes... woke up at 12.30pm but still need to nap. hahaha... pig pig... we then went for dinner in ming ren restaurant. the lamb is still the best there... after dinner, we went to casino and try our luck... as usualy, casino ma... where got luck wan?

we were nicely playing slots, and then abbie called me using a public phone and asked where am i. so i said where me n baby was. minutes later, they were standing behind my sit. the funny thing was, baby saw them, but baby blur. dunno its them. -____-" after the game, we went to mc d for a drink and supper. and we call it a day at 5am.

thanks for the surprise abbie n astre...

--next day--

7th Decemer 2007
woke up at 11am and took bath and we checked out at 12pm. we then went to leave our bags at first world.

went for dim sum as breaky in ah yat. very full ler... den we walked around. bought a few stuffs. bought a baju for baby from esprit for xmas pressie. its been a long time since i last shop this much. very puas! hahahaha...

after shopping, we leave our plastic bags in a locker and went in casino again. haha! die la. i addicted liao... help me!

we left genting at 9pm by bus and have a quick dinner at mom's place. baby went home n sleep. but i was still excited and went for drink lagi with abbie n astre. haha!

i really enjoyed this yr's bday. i have never been this happy before for my bday. thanks baby tho u were late 2 and half hours and spoilt your own surprise plan. haha! =P and thanks abbie n astre for the surprise by shooting to genting and shocked me. haha! thank you thank you...

silent day...

tho it is very quiet today in LYP but the work load that have piled up previously is also killing me. let's see... i have to do...

- filing
- filing...
- key-in customer's data... (loads of them... sigh...)
- more filings...

not been feeling very well lately. having sore throat and always have headache... it's so pain till sometimes i feel like cutting off my throat... plus now i still nit to face customers and talk to them... in a noisy environment... -____-"

it's so noisy!! oh... btw, i'm feeling really hungry now. *sobs* but it's only 1pm and it's too early to eat! later i'll feel hungry again... bah... *looks opposite*... i think i'll get something from guardian...

i cant just stop whinning can i? probably i shall shut my mouth now and type more later...

-- to be continue --

sony cyber shot t100

i know this is a crazy promotion that i heard from my fren. this promotion will only be available first thing tmr morning which is 11th november 2007, 10am.

1st to 10th @ rm111

11th to 20th @ rm222

21st to 30th @ rm333

31st to 40th @ rm444

41st to 100th @ rm1099

and from sony website it shows the selling price is rm1699.

and this is gonna sound even more crazy! 2 of my fren is actually queue-ing up now. its only 10pm, 10th november 2007...

sometimes i wonder, do people really do such crazy stuffs for this kinda stuffs? it's like 12 hours queue-ing not sleeping for a camera! well, i would do that if its to kiss a movie star or some sort like that but... for a camera? i wont do that. but now i believe that there are people who is willing to do that... and only 3 words i can say...

Oh My God...

no... make it 4,

Oh My Ducking God...

-= end =-

p/s, ducking is created when we were having bbq cos if u realise when using t9 method typing sms, it usually comes out duck 1st. so, instead of adding a new word, we just straight away use duck... so... duck you!

byee!

Bee Movie

is really funny!! im not kidding. it is really funny!!

anyways, i really got no mood to blog... but i just wanna say the bee movie is really funny...

i couldnt eat, i couldnt stand properly, i couldnt think straight, i couldnt do anything normal today... bcos... i miss u...

i didnt talk to u, i didnt get to see u, i didnt get to hear your voice, i didnt get to hear u laugh, i didnt get your 'i love you'...

Happy Deepavali...

had a bbq on the nite b4 deepavali. i wasnt working on wednesday and thursday so i went over to baby's house on tuesday nite, slept over and waited for her to finish working on wednesday and we took off to peel road's carrefour to get some stuffs. abbie and astre already got the chicken wings and also the lamb *yummy!* so me n baby went looking for sausages and marshmallows and butter and honey and etc etc... bla bla bla... yada yada yada...

by the time we finish buying things, we went to my mom's restaurant and wanted to prepare the things but we ended up there really early, we decided to go for a round of game at the cyber cafe near by.

baby was really frustrated and wanted to take a nap at my place and i know my mom will actually dislike ppl to step in to my place. mind you... the place im sleeping in now is actually in a hostel. so, mommy dun really like it. i really hope that baby would understand...

after the game, we headed back to my mom's place. preparing and waiting for the others to come n join us.

we had a difficult time to start the fire. mom already helped us to start a little bit den we bring over the stove and we will continue ourselves. but............. unfortunately, kian sort of putting it out... we move the stove back to the fan and waited a while... by the time we started bbq-ing and eating, it was already 10pm. god... we were to freaking hungry! especially baby... she got gastric too!

we were almost done with the bbq (thank god we were almost done), the rain started to rain really heavily. we rushed everything in the restaurant even the stove! then we stayed in a while and have a drink or 2 of beer...

and the ending... we call it off a day at 4am... and i ended up crying... again...

Sweet Bean @ Sri Petaling... er.. is it?

Red bean sesame with tong yuen (Rating : *** )

baby fetched me after work cos wanna pick up my cpu and send her lappie for reformatting and checking and watever my colleague can do for me. at first i thought i can leave early but last minute i gotta do filing and count the collections received today... so, i ended up quite late... sigh...


Fried tong yuen (Rating : **** )

anyways... after i went off with baby, we wanted to go for dim sum in OKR but passed by a shop called Sweet Bean so we stopped by and give it a try...


Noodle with mushroom cheese (Rating : *****)

the food wasnt so bad... especially the noodle with mushroom cheese... whoa. that was really something special... and posibility that i'll go for 2nd round... 99% hehe...

Fish slice congee (Rating : **** )

but then, it was a tiring day, so after we ate and send some of the dessert to her family in sri petaling, we headed home and rest... thats why...

Baby's Sleepy Face!! (Rating : Priceless!)

baby's eyes looks so sleepy... that is one of the reason why we headed home early to sleep. hehe... muaks...

my ah ma...

nowadays i dun stay in subang. just whenever on my off days oni i go back... well, it is been very peaceful for my ears but sleeping experience is disaster...

im currently staying with my mom... no air cond!! and now raining season, a lot mosquito! sobsobs...

den recently i went back subang and too a picture of my and my grandma, she smiled in camera for the 1st time! normally she would hide away from the camera, but this time she didnt. hehe... so cute...

reminder to myself...

baby is goin for medical check-up on coming sunday...

-end-

no mood...

dunno why... incredibly no mood to work today... perhaps its bcos its a sunday? i still have tons of work to do but i still have my own sweet time to blog. sheesh...

start to feel tired about my work... baby said i OT too much. everyday OT till so late, somemore take public transport... not tired oso die d la...

got a news that is rather disappointing. that is... i wont have my OT claims this month. submited late... they said the one i scanned over wasnt clear or they didnt get my OT that i've scanned. i dunno which is which but the conclusion is... i wont get my OT claim this month. but it'll all gather up and pay in next month! yay!!!

i better get back to work b4 i have to OT till midnite... till then... tataz!

idiotic idiots!

i really hate those people who just love to make people's life miserable... as if my life working here is not enough miserable... stupid idiots! arghs!!

working in a service centre front line is really challenging... especially with idiots... *smiles*

'A' is a really nice man and definitely earns my respect while 'B' is the idiot...

A is sending in his device for servicing and coincidently B's device wants to send in for servicing as well. both holding the same model and here goes...

B: aiya... i use this phone i regret la... this phone no good. i come here so many times liao... eh... u wat problem?

A: no la. i just wanna upgrade the ROM.

B: ohh... ur phone no problem meh? aiya. my phone ha, very hang la... taiwan products no good... sometimes ha, wanna throw on the floor. very angry la.

A: wa... rm3k leh...

B: ya lo. i oso know. spend 3k but always go service centre. no good la like that... see la now. hang again. den ha, sometimes ha, kenot sync with my laptop... waste my time la.. aiyo...

A: oh...

B: see now i wanna send in need time somemore... waste time la...

ME: or i can copy the file for u, u can go home n flash it urself... it's very simple, no nit send in oso can wan sir...

B: see... wan me do myself... waste my time. got service centre ma, better give service centre do la...

ME: *speechless*

A: ok la. i have to go... so i come tmr to collect right?

ME: yea.. see u tmr... *smiles*

B: ok la... sync liao... faster faster...

ME: come back in 1 hour.

see la... this kind of ppl really get on my nerves... i mean... u not satisfied, den dun use la. why still using? u can spend 3k on a device, u can spend again on other cheaper phone which will make ur life much better rite? imagine wat would my other customers who are waiting would think? sheesh... luckily dont have customers... if not... jia lat...

idiot!

Lagoon!!

had an off day same as hun which is on a friday so we decided to go to sunway lagoon. i think my last time there was... erm... i forgot, but definitely few years back.

we woke up very early that day and tag along in her parent's car to pyramid first. but her dad accidently drive a little further so we ended up walking very far from pyramid. while walking, hun put her eeyore plush outside the bag hanging its head facing outside eventually fell and we found out only when we reached pyramid. then, we walked back where we came from and start searching for it and poor eeyore was lying on the road.

after getting sun lotion and other stuffs, we walked to sunway lagoon thru the sunway resort, due to the construction that is goin on now, we have to use to long way... stupid.

we had our fun time here... splish and splash here and there. and at the end, hun got sun burnt. see la! dun wanna put sun lotion every 30mins to 1hour like me. haha... i enough tanned d, dun wanna be so dark, so i 'kia-si' put every 30 mins. ;P

hun, we go lagoon every month ar. k? LoL... love u...

more food!!

1st of all, i would like to say, reading company's emails with replies here n there is like watching drama. lots of arguments and tai chi-ing. lol... one of my hobby at work...

anyways... there's a restaurant in sunway which i went already a few times with my aunt and hun and we find that place is wonderful... the food... yummy... making me all hungry already as i havent take my lunch...

the escargot is so-so only... not that nice...

but there one indonesia fried noodle is very nice. typing about it making me saliva drippin.

and now, hun's favourite... potato skin... it has beef inside it and and topped with melted cheese... eat it when it's still hot. it's really yummy... no wonder hun likes this a lot... lol...

it is located the new area near mentari court. and its called.. er.. is im not mistaken it's buffalo steakhouse. a must try..

off day

having an off day it's like no offday. still got things to do that made me tired.

first went to get my i/c. and the bloody machine cant recognise my fingerprint. :(
which waited almost an hour. then followed mom to market. something happened here which i do not wish to mention anymore...

then went over HSBC near BB to open my account.. finally, im able to open my account. and again, the machine cant recognise my finger print. hmm... my fingerprint pattern able to change wan wor... opening an account is really killing me. it take so damn long till my mom got frustrated and afraid her chicken that she just bought would get smelly cos the weather was rather hot... but luckily it didnt. after done opening an account, im required to change my atm pin number. so i proceed to the atm and change it, but... that stupid machine must be very hungry. it ate my atm card! and it said my card is being detained bcos of the duno wat system got duno wat prob. so, i took the slip that says 'card detained' back up to the customer service executive. then again i waited... bahh... at the end, the machine i went to is set to out of service, and i'm able to get back my card.

after that, followed mom back to the restaurant. ate lunch, den rested a while den go out again, followed my mom around buying stuffs for restaurant. den now, back to the restaurant d. and freaking tired and sleepy... ZzZzZZzzzz...

now, gonna wait for hunnie to come over for dinner... hehe...

tmr got work lagi... ~~>.<~~

Sang Yu Wo... Yummy...

as usual, me n hunnie will go for dinner once a week at my mom's place. let me intro to u one of my mom's restaurant's specialty.

'Sang Yu Wo'

Sang Yu is fish and Wo is steamboat. the soup base is actually made out of normal soup mix with milk and the main dish for the soup is fried fish n fillet fish. if u had Yu Tao Mai before den u shud know how's the soup like. get the idea? nice eh?

u can add variety of things of ur choice in the pot. as for me and my hunnie's favourite is 'Kam Cham Ku' and also 'Yu Pin'. Yu Pin = fish fillet.

it was my off day so i took bus n train down to cheras to meet up with hunnie. and we went to peel road's carrefour. after getting the stuffs we wanna add in the steamboat, we went to my mom's restaurant. and then... the fest began...

i couldnt fit in anymore so hunnie ate most of it. it's also her favourite too. hehe... after that we had 'poppers' for dessert.

if anyone of u interested, can just ask me for details. it's located in tmn shamelin perkasa. or u can bring me n hunnie along for special discount rate. haha...

no eyes see...

i was on my way to work ystd in putraline train. witness something that is really disappointing...

i was napping in the train and there's an old chinese man sitting like 2 sits away from me. when there's 3 more stations left b4 reaching kl central, a malay lady and her child came in. to my surprised, the old chinese man gave his sit to the child. that old man was practically old till hunchback d... and he offered. the child just sat and i understand. budak kecik mana tau so many things? but her mother, for goodness sake shud know that her daughter is strong enough to stand than the old man. my god... i was really angry. i saw many people looking at the malay lady. i said out loud oh my god staring at that malay lady. and i offered my sit to that old man...

roughly the same incident happened to a fren of mine. she was sitting down and saw an old chinese lady walking in the train and my fren stood up wanting to offer that old lady the sit. once my fren got up, a malay lady rushes to get the sit. to my fren's surprised, my fren told her that the sit was meant to be for that old lady. the malay lady said 'takder bagi bagi. duduk, duduk jer la. apa nak bagi bagi?'

wahai minoriti malay malaysians... takder budi bahasa ke? tak belajar ke kat sekolah??

i'm not being discriminating. i dun mind being frens with malay or indian... but it just pisses me off to see things like that...

cant u be more courteous?

friendless...

i came to realise that im really friendless. when i just started working, a guy colleague asked me if i have any female friends to intro to him. i said i dont have any female friends. it's not that i dont want to. i'm happy if im able to match my frens up but i just dont have them. as a lesbian i am, i shud have more female friends than male friends. but i have none from both.

a male friend called me last nite, the only person i can call him a friend. and we chatted a while. and complained about me being friendless. he told me what goes around, comes around. for i have been a really bad player. he told me to look all the bad things from the past and mirror it. honestly, i almost wanted to cry. i believe this is y i wanna keep this r'ship i currently having, treasure it, learning from it, live with it...

he told me everything is fate. and just accept whatever is coming to me. i can accept whatever it is. i just dont want to lose this current r'ship. but however, i cant help being upset regarding being friendless. cos i am a human... i still need friends to talk to. i cant be talking about my lesbian things to a guy...

today, sam sent me a text msg at about 12pm asking me if i wanna have drinks. i cant be having drinks with my ex alone. my gf would kill me. so i asked if the others r coming along... she told me she'll arrange everything and will let me know. sam called me at 9pm telling me that the girl that suppose to confirm with sam whether she can fetch me or not didnt get her back. and when sam called that girl, she was already in kl with the others... there i was, staying at home waiting for confirmation... and ended up never even inform me... i dont mind if she cant fetch me. if she tells me that she cant fetch me.

when that male friend of mine told me to mirror it, i was like, have i ever mistreated friends? am i very hard to get along? i thought when u want someone to treat u nice n respect u, firstly, u must treat others nice n respect them... n thats how i treat my frens... and why am i treated the other way round now? is it bcos that i was a player b4 that is why am losing friends? or people refuse to mix around with me?

she's disgusted...

that i say too much vulgar words... better start learning to keep my mouth clean... =P

FUCKING IRRITATED!

i'm so so so fucking irritated these 2 days. let me start off why i'm so fucking irritated now.

there's one malay fucker thinks that in the cyber cafe is a karaeok. stupid fuck. he's singing so damn fucking loud like nobody's business. argh! go sing in summit la, they have karaeok cubicles or i rather call it boxes for malay freaks like u! argh! he's still singing! he's really getting on my nerves! stop it u idiot!! i have enough sound system from my house.

talking about my house, my grandma nags me again today! not that its rare. she nags at me everyday! yah... she is my sound system from home. sigh... let me see. whats the topic today.

oh my fucking god. that malay freak is starting again. it's not like he sings better than faizal from OIAM. he sings much much much worst than him! argh. please. shoot me!

anyways... as i was saying... the topic. i'm a useless bitch cos i've not been working. and yeah... tho i found a job now but she still says im a useless freak. which really kills all my self confidence! why cant just shut up and let me gain back my confidence?? next is, *drumroll*... why cant i wash my own clothes. hello? when i wanna wash it u said it's not clean n u wash it again!

whenever she nags at me, i feel numb. really numb. sometimes i feel like screaming back at her like today but i just cant open my mouth cos it'll all ended up her throwing the hair dryer and boom! hit my forehead. so i kept quiet. and all i can is this. type. type like nobody's business. type...

SHUT UP YOU MORON!!

*inhale deeply* *exhale* *smiles* anyways... that is what happened today. and now... yesterday's irritating incidents! i went for a hair cut at GDO subang parade. and i tell u. the worst service i've every seen in a salon. 1st, no magazine. 2nd, no drinks. 3rd, dont understand wat u've requested. i wanted to have it short till just nice i can tie it up. i dont wan horse tail anymore. instead of that, he just trimmed my hair. i was stunned when he's trimming most of it, i sounded him. not sounded in a harsh way lah, i just said, i wanted to short, just nice to cut it. u know how he replied??!! 'then you tell me what you wan la. what u wan?' i was like... what the fuck? is this how u talk to customer ar?? unconciously, i raised my voice. =P

but i have to admit, he massaged my head really nice. almost fall asleep. hehe...

2nd thing, is it so hard for people to give the correct information? is it so damn bloody hard?? after my hair cut, i went to get a bus to sunway's projet and plan to walk over to mc d to meet up with darling. usually, the bus i took was U67. the route for U67 was from parade, to sunway, then turn in to projet, then turn down to federal and head to midvalley. but i was in a rush due to some incident, i asked if U76 goes to sunway's projet. the bus driver said got. i asked again to double confirm, he said got and ask me to get in. to my surprise, the driver didnt turn in and headed down to NPE highway. i was shocked and asked a malay girl, she said that U76 heading to Midvalley using the OKR, not federal. i was really angry! i got down half way and walked quite a distance to a bus stop near by. stupid arse...

yeah... the malay guy is still singing... sigh...

p/s, no offence to other malays out there. some of u are really nice, but some of u like this malay guy... really get on my nerves... sorry.

Happy Birthday to my Dearest Hubby~

tho is has past by kinda long ago but i wanted to take this opportunity to wish her a very happy belated bday. well, she told me her bday lasts for at least a week. which means, now it's still her bday. lol... so cute... hehe...

today she went to sg wang for her hair cut n insisted that she wants to post her new hair style here... so 'oi leng' wan... lol...

and... here it is!


TA DA~~

*claps*

sigh... i oso dunno wat to type.. and very sien. dun feel like typing. so, i shall sign off now.

taz~

Morning kisses~

it's so nice to have someone shower u with kisses in the morning once u're awake. sweet...

Point B!

was browsing through my handphone's memory card and i found this picture. it's called blush! cafe. u know? the one which sells lingerie? yeah... it's located in summit usj. what a waste! it look so sweet and it's located at a rather deserted corner. i didnt notice it at first and i was curious wat's arround the corner, and i went for a peep.

i cant deny, delicious foods n interesting places usually located at deserted ares.

i think summit usj really have to thank gsc. if it's not because of the cinema is still there, they would have close down long long time ago. and now they've opened point b!. it's very classy and the stuffs there are really nice. branded stuffs and loads of japanese and korean junk food. the crowd? sucks...

Genting

i almost lost my voice after being too crazy with them last nite. thank god i'm still able to talk today. hehe...

yesterday after got off from hunnie's home, i drove to cyber cafe and asked if i can on9 or not. surprisingly, she allowed. ^^ i finished on9 at about 1pm and called my aunt see if she want's back her car or not. but she didnt answered, so i drove back. i got home n was feeling hungry and grandma said she's goin out to da pau. hehe...

i wanted to sleep but was too addicted with psp. at the end, i didnt get any nap at all. until 5.30pm wanted to get my bath but grandma said she wanna bath too... sigh... i passed the car back to my aunt and she sent me to cyber cafe and i waited for hunnie there...

while playing game, abbie called... (or was it astre? still cant recognise their voice) and asked for a drink. and another surprise is, hunnie actually allowed! i tot she wont cos i know she's tired and it's late and tmr she have to wake up early for her family outing...

we reached to the mamak in permaisuri, we were bored at 1st so yvone suggested to go n play pool for a game or two. then, it started la. while those who were not playing pool started chor dee. we were laughing and lauging like crazy. after the game, we went for mamak 2nd round in pandan indah. another bunch of laughter there... LoL...

it was 4.20am already when me n hunnie left. and they were still there... but have to left cos we're afraid we couldnt get up for breaky with her parents, so we called it off the day.

and so... here i am... in genting's starbucks typing blog cos i'm kinda bored... hunnie went to the casino d. i dun like gambling so, i really thank her for bringing this laptop along. muahz!

for now, let me continue playing my game... chiaoz~

one more thing...

things are better now. as i've talked to her about my job thingie and the 28th thing. she said she took it back... i know she's not that mean. =P

but in one condition, i MUST concentrate on looking for a job.

Muahs n Huggies~

TRANSFORMER~

Finally! i've watched it! it was super dooper farking nice! i went and bought the tickets on sunday for wednesday's show but even wednesday's show is full, what more the coming saturday? so i tried thursday instead, there's a nice sits for me n hunnie! of cos, immediately i bought. tho the girl at the counter was a little annoyed by me when i keep changing my mind. =P

so the day has finally arrived, which was 2 days ago, 1st i went for the interview, which i mentioned previously and it's disappointing, we shall put that away for now as it is happy moment! then i went online and type that depressing interview experience, then i sent the car to my aunt and my aunt sent me to summit usj. waited for hunnie to arrive and we had our dinner. KFC! after dunno how many centuries. hehe...

then we went to starbucks. something was wrong with the connection when hunnie tried to connect to the internet. and she scolded me cos i installed the games... and she's saying it's the games fault that causes it... sigh... then when she changed table, it's able to connect. but IE took kind along to load. and i think maybe she's right la about the games i installed... pirated stuffs ma... *blush*

then when it was 9pm, we went off and headed to the cinema. watched it. tho the sit is nice but because it was packed with people it was fucking hot. we felt like we were in the sauna room just bigger with loads of people. and plus, hunnie was sitting next to an indian. p/s: erm... no offence ar. and she said he got one kinda smell which made her very uncomfy. i offered to change place but she dun wan to and i know why, cos she dun wan me to suffer next to that guy with that smell... hehe...

at the end of the show, the smell, the hot environment everything that is negative came to positive as the show is really good. we were amazed by it. ^^

babe, what's our next movie? can we watch it again? =P

Stupid Rapid KL

it's not the 1st time waiting for that stupid U67 under the bloody hot sun for nearly 1hour. for 1 whole bloody hour! can you imagine that? and they have to courage to put their estimated time on the board 20 to 30 mins. my arse!

transformers is out! Yay!! i've already bought the tickets for tmr and i'm watching with my dearest ginger boy... cant wait... wahahahahaha!!

after the whole huge argument, 2 days back, which is monday, i finally get to spend 2 nights with her... i dont know. i like spending quality time with her... only her. not to say i dont like to spend time at the cyber cafe with her or movies or walking around malls... not to say i dun like that. i like it, but i prefer more... how should i put this... quiet time? er... i dont know!! but in this 2 days, i'm really happy... i'm feeling back the warmth in my heart that i have lost months back. i'm feeling back the sense of security in her arms... i'm feeling back her, being mine.

but the thing i dont understand is, she said she dun love me anymore but it's just starting back. but what i felt these days, is different. i felt that she really cared for me and love me a lot... is she lying bout it to boost up my eagerness on looking for job, or it's just a plain hurtful truth?

I'm Addicted... So is she...

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Our Anniversary~

On the 17th of june will be our anniversary. Exactly 1yr we've been together. Although we argue a lot n everytime it's really crazy n most of the time it's on small tiny matter, but until now i'm still very in love with her. If i were to compare with my previous rships, my feelings for her is still really deep after 1yr being together. I still feel we've just started only few months cos i feel that we're still very very loving. N i also feel that we've been together forever cos of the bond we've build together n the ups n downs we've went thru.
Darling, Happy early Anniversary. Love you lots lots.

Bad Daughter

I actually forgotten all about my mom's bday which falls on 17th june. Exactly the same date as me n kurisu's anniversary. We were suppose to hav steamboat at kurisu's house with a few frens 1 day b4 which falls on the 16th. So, my mind was only focusing on the steamboat n our anniversary. At the same time, kurisu's parents r flyin off to shang hai. Wat a coincidence.

So... We went for a gathering on the 1st n then went back home. Kurisu went back home of cos, while i crash at abbie's place. Cos kurisu suppose to go to johor on the next day. So on the 2nd, we were msging whole day n she ask me to ask the rest if the steamboat on the 16th is confirm or not. Then the next msg says something like, "then the next day we go hav dinner with your mom. It's her burfday!" I was very surprised. It totally had slipped off my mind n kurisu actually remembers it. I only remembered that it's steamboat n next day is our anniversary. I'm such a terrible daughter to forgot my own mom's bday. She even suggested that my mom join us for steamboat so that at strike midnite, we can blow candles n celebrate with her. So sweet.

I'm really glad to hav kurisu as my fren that i can talk to, my gf that we can pamper each other, my hubbie that i can count my future on, my soulmate that i can share my feelings with, my lifetime partner to walk with forever. Oh... N my personal reminder. =P

I'm really very afraid of losing her. The other day i had a really bad dream that kurisu is not here anymore. I cried in my sleep n cried even more harder when i'm awake. I dun wish to say much bout it. Just that, i'm really afraid of losing her...