就是爱你 -陶喆

我 一直都想对你说
你给我想不到的快乐 像绿洲给了沙漠
说 你会永远陪着我
做我的根 我翅膀 让我飞 也有回去的窝
我愿意 我也可以 付出一切 也不会可惜
就在一起 看时间流逝 要记得我们相爱的方式
就是爱你爱着你 有悲有喜 有你 平淡也有了意义
就是爱你爱着你 甜蜜又安心 那种感觉就是你
我 一直都想对你说
你给我想不到的快乐 像绿洲给了沙漠
说 你会永远陪着我
做我的根 我翅膀 让我飞 也有回去的窝
我愿意 真的愿意 付出所有 也要保护你
Oh 在一起 时间继续流逝 请记得我有多么的爱你
Oh 就是爱你爱着你 不弃不离不在意 一路有多少风雨
就是爱你爱着你 放在你手心 灿烂的幸福全给你
Oh 就是爱你爱着你 不弃不离不在意 一路有多少风雨
就是爱你爱着你 放在你手心 灿烂的幸福全给你
Oh 就是爱你爱着你 我都愿意
就是爱你爱着你 要我们在一起

1st met...

looking thru old stuffs really makes u feel better sometimes.



love u lots bieboo...

all i want is just spend more time with u...

is that just so hard?

cant u feel it we've been distant apart? can we spend more time to draw it closer?

i don't want to be distant from you. that's only making me feel that u dont love me anymore. i know i've been throwing temper at u recently, watelse can i do to get your attention? and like i've said, i'm afraid that u dont love me anymore.

we're spending time lesser and lesser... our conversations are getting shorter and shorter over the phone. wat went wrong?

i hate being away from you. it'll only make me feeling lonely and unloved. the only place i feel loved and secured is in ur arms.

is it too much to ask for?

Tonight's the Night - Janet Jackson

Stay away from my window
Stay away from my backdoor to
Disconnect the telephone line
Relax baby and draw that blind
Kick off your shoes and sit right down
Loosen up that pretty french gown
Let me pour you a good long drink
Ooh baby don't you hesitate cos
Tonight's the night
It's gonna be allright
Cos I love you girl
Ain't nobody gonna stop us now
C'mon angel my hearts on fire
Don't deny your man's desire
You'd be a fool to stop this tide
Spread your wings and let me come inside, cos
Tonight's the night
It's gonna be allright
Cos I love you girl
Ain't nobody gonna stop us now
(tonight's the night, tonight's the night, tonight's the night)
Don't say a word, my virgin child
Just let your inhibitions run wild
The secret is about to unfold

Upstairs before the night's to old, cos
Tonight's the night (tonight's the night)
It's gonna be allright
Cos I love you girl
Ain't nobody gonna stop us now (tonight, tonight's the night)
Tonight's the night (tonight's the night)
It's gonna be allright (tonight's the night)
Cos I love you boy
Ain't nobody gonna stop us now
This is so special
Tonight's the night
Don't be afraid
Tonight's the night
Don't be afraid
Tonight's the night
Don't be afraid
I wanna make things allright
Tonight's the night
Don't be afraid
Repeat and fade

what the fuck now??

im pissed... very pissed...

this morning we were having meeting with our assistant manager and as usual, all the shooting with AK-47. nightmare. not the 1st time. i got used to it. note: 'I' got used to it.

after meeting, my senior starts showing face. then, senior asked to call one of the dealer to get something from them. i was like... that is beyond my control and kesian them la, their customer is from JB for God's sake.

i have no choice. tho it's only the last 3 days i'll be here, i still have to do my part, i called the dealer and told him the situation. and i gave a week. hopefully he can make it.

then after this shit, she asked me to call all the quotation. its bloody saturday and everyone who have day off sure will wake up late so i wanna call probable noon. she was like, call all now! i wan to close every job now. wtf...

wat if... WAT IF... that customer wants to think about it? collect 1st then only think? u know wats the hassle to come here with all the jam and all??

shit...

which one leh?

i'm so so so torn apart. i dont know which one to choose... sighs...

all of them are so beautiful and i love them all... but i cant be buying all of them and wear it... sighs...

why dont u give me some suggestions? XD


Name : Puzzle - You Complete Me
i like this but i think it's a bit old fashion...



Name : Mark of Love
this is ok too i think, but i dont like the gold part thing...



Name : Ball with Hollow Out Pattern
i think this is very cute!!



Name : Love You
i like this too! it's i love you.... cannot really see it right? hehe...



Name : Valentine's Pendant
this is not too bad... i like it...

Name : Nobody Stops The Love
This was my previous one. but baby's necklace broke d, and mine too later on... pendant is still here. but was thinking to get a new one~ hehe... fatt haoo~~

heihhhh... how?? my favourites are ball, valentine's pendant and love you... how?? >.<

anyways, its from Mark of Love. Hehe... have a peep. i got this page by simply searching thru yahoo... enjoy~

another thing to learn...

To All Married Couples and To All Future Couples...LOVE WHAT U ARE GIFTED WITH RATER THAN LOVING WHATEVER PASSING BY...very classic example below!

When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.

Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly. She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why? I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man!

That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; I had lost my heart to a lovely girl called Dew. I didn't love her anymore. I just pitied her!

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, 30% shares of my company and the car. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Dew so dearly.

Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Dew. When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month's time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.

This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day. She requested that everyday for the month's duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy.

Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.

I told Dew about my wife s divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully. My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don't tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset.

I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me. On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn't tell Dew about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily. Suddenly it hit me; she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart.

Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head. Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mum out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.

But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked intimacy. I drove to office... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind... I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I do not want the divorce anymore.

She looked at me, astonished. Then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each other any more. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death does us apart.

Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away. At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote:

"I'll carry you out every morning until deaths do us apart"

The small details of our lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, the property, the bank balance that matters. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse's friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!

If you don't share this, nothing will happen to you, but if you do, you just might save a marriage.

Relationships are made not to exploit, not to be broken.

We teach some by what we say

We teach some more by what we do

But we teach most by what we are

- Mailed by a friend of mine...Point to ponder upon -

Something to learn...

Ah Kau is a guy who sells newspaper every morning next to your apartment, and you are one of his daily regular customers. Beforedashing off to your office every day, you will go to his small stall and buy The Star newspaper. Wearing a newly pressed shirt, a tie, and a pair of Clarks shoes, you grab a copy of The Star, pay RM1.20 and exchange smiles with Ah Kau and greet him.

"Apa macam Ah Kau ini hari? Bisnes ada baik?"

The normal greeting like you do every day. Yes, Ah Kau doesn't speak English. He speaks Chinese and knows a little bit of Malay. He speaks a little bit of Malay but with a very thick Chinese accent.

"Biasa saja... ini bisnes aa, kadang kadang baik, kadang kadang tada untung oo...." "Biasalah hidup. Kadang kadang ok, kadang kadang tak ok."

You give Ah Kau a pat on the back. You smile and walk away and get into your car. You start the engine and start driving to your office, a multinational semiconductor company located in a premier industrial area. You are a young and promising finance executive and the future looks bright for you.

A year goes by and things look pretty good on the track. You decide to marry your fiance and have your new wife moves in to your place. Both of you feel happy because you can save more money as the two of you will be sharing one apartment and can live as one.

Ah Kau is still selling the newspaper as usual. Sometimes in the morning your wife gets the newspaper from Ah Kau instead of you.

A year later a child comes along, and you decide to buy and move into a newly developed condominium just across the street. This place isbigger so it will be perfectly fit for the 3 of you. But since both of you are working, you decide to get a maid to take of the household and your kid. By this time you're offered a managerial job from another multinational; the remuneration package offered is much better in terms of the pay, contractual bonus, medical benefits, ESOS scheme and a few others which make it impossible for you to decline. So you join this company happily.

You get busier. You realize that you spend less and less time with your family. When your department is busy preparing for the next audit, your working hours become more and more ridiculous. Any internal issues arising in the office means you'll be stuck in the office until 8 or 9 pm. Sometimes, during the weekend, you'll spend your time in your office, buried under paper works and documentations, instead of taking your family for a walk in the park.

One morning, on your way to get your copy of The Star, you realized that Ah Kau is no longer in his stall. So is his rundown motorbike. Instead, there's another young Chinese guy at the stall.

"What happen to Ah Kau?" You ask out of curiosity.

"Oh, he is still around, but he is no longer taking care of this stall as he has opened up a new grocery shop down town. I am running this newspaper stall for him."

"Ok," you smile. You feel happy for Ah Kau.

"At last he manages to improve his life."

Your normal life continues. A year passes by and at the end of your company's fiscal year, you're rewarded for your effort with a 5 months bonus pay-out by your employer. Wow. Now that is a very handsome reward. You feel your effort has been equally compensated.

To celebrate, you decide that it's time to trade your 5-year old Proton Wira to the latest Honda Civic model. It won't be much a problem to you to get a loan scheme from the bank as your pay slip will provide you an easy gateway to access financial help from any bank.

One day, the hardest reality of life hits you right on the face. The company that you've been working for years announces that they're moving their business to China for cost and competitive reason and has asked you to find a job somewhere else.

"What?" You scream out cold.

"I got a lot of liabilities on the card! Who's gonna pay for my mortgage? My car? My credit card? My gym fees? My bills?" You yell like there's no way out.

This is the first time you feel let down by your own employer. All your hard work seem to go up on the smoke. You feel sick. You now hate your company.

On the way home, you stopped by at a mamak restaurant for a cup of teh tarik while pondering about your future. Alone.

Suddenly you saw this new, shiny BMW 3 series being parked nearby. And to your surprise, it was Ah Kau.

Yes, Ah Kau who used to sell newspapers nearby your old apartment. "What happened to old Ah Kau?" You whisper to your self. Ah Kau still recognizes you, and sit next to you, and shared his story. To make it short, Ah Kau had accumulated his money from selling newspapers to open more stalls, one after another. Every new stall is run by his workers so that he focused on opening more and more stalls, which in turn give him more and more money. Over the years, he had accumulated enough cash to open up new grocery store while at the same time buying more assets to grow his wealth. And his current wealth and success is achieved without any loan or financial help from banks and other financial institutions. There you go. That's the story. While Ah Kau is set to become financially free, you're back to where you're started before. Groundzero.

Before leaving, Ah Kau gives you a familiar quote, "Biasalah hidup. Kadang kadang ok, kadang kadang tak ok." He gives you a pat on the back and walks away.

In reality, if you're observant enough, there are a lot of Ah Kaus out there, that you will see every day and every where you go. The names are different, but inside them is every character of Ah Kau. They might be Uncle Dorai, Ah Chong, Pak Abu, Makcik Gemuk, Pak Man nasi lemak or others. They look to be struggling on the surface, but if you look carefully and compare with you life, many of them are living with little or no liabilities. They ride an old 'kapcai' bike. They live in an old rundown house. They don't have credit card to swipe. They wear a 10-year old shirt and short. No new, shiny Toyota Harrier. In short, their living means are far below than yours.

But what you don't realize is that many of them can save more money than yours, and over the years generate enough money to expand their business, or invest in properties. Their asset columns are much thicker than that of yours.

So the next time you see Ah Kaus, never look down on them, and never under estimate them. Or else you're up for a harsh reality lesson.

"SHARING IS CARING".....

whole stomach fire...

why is it so hard to have the superiors to go out and talk to customers?? is it so fucking hard??

u think i havent told customers wat u shud have told? i've told everything! everything single freaking thing!! and THEY request wanted to see u... u think i really wanna push u down to death alley??

fuck...

something i found...

Hazel in action...

when i first know her...

back in june 2006, thats when i know my current baby... we get along very well and click very well too...

i know a lot of people thinks that she is the one who ruined my previous relationship, but we proved them wrong.

i was korek-ing my photo email, and i found something very precious to me. which made me smile from my heart.


cute hoh??? XD

updates on wat's missing...

firstly is, my great-grandma was admited to hospital. i was told by my aunt... and it goes like...

aunt : oi. tai ma admited to hospital liao. we go visit on saturday.
me : oh... ok... wat happen la?
aunt : tai ma's body got worm...
me : ha?? sure ah? why ah??
aunt : i oso dunno. gu gong (granduncle) told me like that.

and we went to greatgrandma's place on saturday as she was discharge from the ward on friday. there's no worm at all on her body and the truth is... she's been sitting in such position and never move, and all the sweat moist her skin and afraid that it might have maggots...

sheesh...


Grandma feeding greatgranny makan... mmm~


Grandaunt feeding greatgranny makan... taking turns
with granny...


Greatgrandfather's bicycle... damn antique weih...


And now... my uncle and aunt's side. indian tradition...

at some certain young age as a girl, when u first pierce your ears, it's a hoo haa thing... so at 7.30am, the whole family went indian temple to pierce ears... both of their daughters. den at the same day, it's their 10th year wedding anniversary as well... damn pandai to choose the day. =P
so they had open house on that particular night...


From l to r : blue shirt boy, Swee Leng, Aunt, Uncle, Swee Jing, red shirt boy.


Happy family blow cake cake~


Feed feed,,, suuweet suuweeet ohh~~


this part i tell u... my uncle just pushed the cake in her mouth...
Shooooo unromantic... eeeesh!!


My cute cousin who always loves to smile~
Swee Jing...

Now it's random pictures~
i always have hard time taking pictures for kin boy... very hard. me and my mom thinks that he dun like cameras... or he's too dumb... but~
finally~~


KIN BOY!!! LOOKING RIGHT AT THE CAMERA!

And lastly myself at BBQ Plaza...
ei... this place really is a MUST try la... tho i know most of u been binging there already. but still the food its damn good! and cheap... well, me and my baby thinks it's cheap. Me and baby's favourite makan spot~


Full full liao... *burpz* @ BBQ Plaza One Utama

dear parents, u just want them to be happy, am i right?

refering to the post below, i dont think i can agree on the title.

missing teens could be runaway lesbians...

wat r we? useless lesbians with no respect towards parents?

and moreover, i dont blame them to do so cos i understand the cause of it. cos i used have the feeling of running away.

i dont know about them. but this is wat i think.

lack of communications between a child and parents could be a problem to this. the child wont have the courage to come out to their parents and admit it. and i know, most of us dont want to hurt our parents that way, but wat are u suppose to do when u strike 40 yrs old not married and your parents have been asking u when r u gonna get married? why parents want us to get married? they want someone to take care of us when they were to leave us one fine day. would you want them to die worrying that nobody is gonna take care of u or would u let them die knowing that u have someone sweet n tender in ur life taking good care of you?

sorry for the late respond tho.. work work work... sigh...